That idea which should not be accepted will be destroyed. (and why we repress what we feel)
We live in a society governed by the divided left hemisphere; everything that exists is evaluated through it. It does not consider other factors that do not conform to the reality of seeing, touching, and measuring. Any deviation from the reality one “should” perceive, from what one “could” be feeling, may condemn a person to the programme known as mental illness. Nor can it be blamed: if someone claims that an elephant is speaking to them, it is assumed to be an attempt to make them see it, is it not? Essentially because elephants do not speak. How could they? And if the elephant were telling us to kill everyone around us, we would be speaking of schizophrenia in capital letters, would we not? Elephants clearly do not speak, and if they did, they would hardly suggest committing genocides.
Today, more than ever, it is being discovered that illnesses of this clinical nature arise from a mental imbalance, a confusion between thought and emotion, in the person who suffers from them. In other words, any pain we experience in the body, whether viral, cancerous, an injury or illness in general, originates from something emotional: a criterion or addictive pattern rooted in the mind that reproduces itself in the body. Any repression or excessive stress, any negative energy, will eventually manifest as something malignant. As it is outside, so it is within; and as it is within, so it will be without. We cannot hide even from ourselves. We are our only reality, the only one we can create and destroy. We may influence others and lead them to live our reality, but in doing so we will ultimately harm them. Thus, confusion within one’s line of thought, together with emotional repression, whether stemming from unresolved trauma or from genetic factors, breaks a person’s perception of reality What is it that leads us to illness? It does not matter whether it is physical, mental or emotional; all illness is born from programmed ideas that create limiting and repressive criteria.
Illness could be understood as the means through which our being expresses a limitation or repression we have imposed upon ourselves. Everything we forbid in others, they will repress. Everything that is forbidden to us, we will repress. Everything. If you loved that man but he was not considered right for you, for whatever programmed reason, you will repress it. And in repressing it, something within you that needed to emerge will remain inside. Thus we have accumulated repression upon repression within ourselves, which has driven us mad and made us ill. When we are repressed, it means that we are doing something we are told we should not be doing. Yet continuing to do it does not always dissolve the repression. When you oppose repression, you generate discord. You must fight in order to do what you are told you should not do. It does not matter whether it is your family, your friends or society itself. If you have followed what you believed you should do rather than what you were told, you have fought, argued and struggled against that repressive environment. Even if you chose to live in the wilderness, reaching it would have required discord. Its curse will remain with you. For others constructed your reality, the one you must now reshape or dismantle in order to continue existing. Your life will change: if you choose repression, you will fall ill; if you choose discord, you will live in conflict, in vengeance. There will always be someone attempting to repress, because that is how we have all been conditioned, through repression or discord. Everything we know has been imposed upon us. How, then, could we not repress others in the same way we have been repressed? Our history was taken from us, and we have been given a dreadful world, a dystopia, an imperfect world. We have repressed our history and created a world of discord. Repression is accompanied by approval. When your mother told you not to eat things from the ground and you obeyed, approval followed; otherwise you might have fallen ill, and it would have been an experience. When we repress others, we are cursing their experiences. That is fear. Fear is not the danger of being killed, abducted or violated; that is terror, panic. Fear is programmed. It has many layers and manifests in countless ways. Whatever its form, it is illusory and operates through concealment. If you were told not to go to a friend’s house but did so anyway without conflict, you would do it in secret, knowing it might eventually generate discord. You hide it because you know the war it could unleash. We live in a reality of repression, discord and concealment. If desires, ideas or longings are likely to provoke repression or discord, we hide them. Yet in the end, this concealment leads to conflict.
Only higher beings understand what is hidden. They recognise the struggle within the left hemisphere’s programme of fear, expressed as repression and discord, which form the foundations of our reality: that idea which should not be accepted will be destroyed. In this way, the world has ended up losing everything. Those who perceive this have concealed their ideas and feelings, reserving them for a private and intimate circle. They have become hermetic in order to maintain their position. They understand that whoever represses will in turn be repressed, and that whoever lives by the sword will die by it. They have ceased repressing and ended the struggle. They have withdrawn, hidden their ideas and emotions, and found love. Love is not wanting, thinking or living for another person; that is romanticism, a programmed form of love. There are people who would not be able to bear certain ideas or feelings, and therefore cannot accept what would be a burden to them. Those who understand this have discovered the right side of the brain and begun to work with it. They have begun to feel alive because they have recognised the nature of the game. Only higher beings attain awareness of the original programmed reality. They have moved to another level, for better or worse. It was the higher being who created this programmed reality, within which the lower being now advances without restraint. They have lost their position. They have understood the entire cycle and remembered the origin. Yet they are afraid, because they cannot share it, as the world insists they are mistaken. The system itself will pursue them. And it is through this fear that they come to feel love. They feel love because they conceal a truth that is, in fact, shared; only awareness, or the degree of repression, separates them. They know they will die, and within a cycle in which the lower being takes centre stage, they must become mere instruments: the sacred sword, the staff, the silent mountain, the chalice of fire, and so on.
